It happened just two weeks before I left for NZ.
"Dad has passed away..." My mom's words with a quivering voice on the phone brought tears to my eyes...
...which I'd never expected...
...which I'd never expected...
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Canola flower fields along the rode to Lake Tekapo
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I had been thinking that I would never cry even if my father would die...
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Baby sheep in a farm near Christchurch
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He was strict and demanded that his daughter achieved as he wished. When he was angry, his tanned face from playing golf always scared me. I spent my adolescent years rebelling him, and had a lot of arguments with him until I left home.
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Tiny flowers in Ruth's garden
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My father used to tell me, "If you learn English hard, you might have many chances to go to foreign countries."
But my least favorite subject was English in my school days.
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From the top of the hill in Devonport, Aukland
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After seven years of leaving home, I found myself practicing golf hard.
After twenty years of leaving home, I found myself studying English hard.
And now, I found myself wanting to see him and talk to him...
I might have been wanting to prove myself to him...
Finally noticed it after I've lost him.
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Landscape go by from the car window
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"Why don't you cancel the trip," someone said.
But I decided to fly to NZ carrying his photo with me. I wanted to take him to a foreign country where he wished to visit.
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Morning glow from the hotel window in Aukland
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I was impressed by the grandeur of nature, there. Majestic mountains healed my broken heart, and the still lake made me feel tranquil.
But what healed me the most was all the people I met there... Deeply touched by their tender hearts.
I will never forget this trip...
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Dear Keity,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss of your father.
Yes I do believe your father was with you during your trip and for further on he will always be with you in your heart.
And there is no doubt that you will keep on proving him.
Please let me know If I can help in anyway.
My thoughts and my prayers are with you.
My dearest Keity ,i am so sorry that I hear these news ... I think that your dad was proud of you and you will not forget him .He will live in your heart ! You will have him with you in every country that you will visit !
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts to you ,
Olympia
Dear friend,
ReplyDeletehow touching is this post, how real, because your story could be everybody's else story...I feel you and can understand you. Time will recover his lost and you will keep only sweetness in your heart. I loose my father 18 years ago ...
Warmest regards
Oly
Dear Keity, how sweet that you have shared your story with us. I would never have known you did not want to learn English at first as you are very good at it now.
ReplyDeleteYour father would be proud of you and how you shared your beautiful trip to NZ.
Keity, I'm glad you were still able to come and bring your father in spirit. It was so wonderful meeting you last year, it was a special day for me as well and I'm so happy you enjoyed it!
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I lost my father last year.....I understand your pain and confusion.
ReplyDeleteI am glad you found comfort on your trip.......
I'm so sorry to read about your loss, Keity. I can certainly empathize with you regarding tough father daughter relationships. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you peace and happiness.
ReplyDeleteSo we all think when we lose our parents. We're getting elder and wiser. I'm very sorry about you father death. Your photos reflect well your feelings, Keity!
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